Learning the dance (house sitting at the Dances' :P) of paradox of becoming a servant (Lamb Mothers and Amazing Grace) and a teacher (The science of empathy). I trip and fall quite often...but it becomes so obvious that I need Jesus everyday. He really was and is the perfect model of motherhood--the unrestrained empathy and "safe strength" I find in Him both. He is my perfect "Mother."
I read the two articles recently-- thanks to friends who share great things to read on facebook. :) I keep going back to this quote from the first article by Ann Voskamp:
...I had this, all this. I might not have.
At the poolside, she had smiled and reached to cup me too, us both with wet cheeks, us both laughing anyways, her eyes so blue and I could see straight through that she is never for me, children never for us, to please us, to fulfill us, but I am for her, to nurture and protect and serve and children are the gift and parents are the ones who give. I know not of tiger mothers, but He speaks of lamb mothers with the heart of the Lion of Judah who lay down their lives for the sheep. Who lay down happiest laughter, realest joy, lay down story and wonder and questions and discovery and prayers and protective boundaries and words that make souls stronger, who lay down memoried loved upon memoried love and here we might.
In her sleep, she stirs and I am stirred too. I get to do this!
This moment isn’t a forever grace but amazing grace....
I so much appreciate this mom's wisdom and the beautiful way of putting it into words--"words that make souls stronger."
the day after it snowed-taken from the balcony of the Dances' house |
chilling with chilled teethers |
Blueberry face |
my homemade bread |
my beautiful lamb |
tummy timing Ti |
I was right where you are only a few weeks ago and I'm sure I'll visit back by there again if I ever have another baby, but God had a plan even for those periods when I was faithless. He's still moving and working and transforming. Ask God to open your eyes to see Him in the mundane. He's there! I found Him today in Strawberries and I will need to go find Him some more in the flat of strawberries, because the task He's given me is NOT yet done. So, I must go, but take heart God is right there with you and will use this "down" period of your life for His glory among the nations. Keep begging God for help! He is our strength and will answer. Get into that Bible. I know you don't feel like it. Do it anyways. If only out of sheer obedience. He will reward even your efforts to seek Him out. I love you dearly, sister! I am praying for you and with you for brighter days and motivation to act.
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Heather
Heather, thanks for the challenge and encouragement to keep getting in His Word! Ari's taking her nap so I'm going to read a bit now! Glad you're back at home! Love you too!
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